June 13, 2005
Tilted.I think, when you love yourself too much, like 102%, you tend to forget that you need love from other people too. It becomes a natural defense mechanism to fend off any gestures of love from other people. Not because it's not good enough; more because, it disarms you from the 102%. You will rather have that 102% that is already in your nest than to exchange 5% for something that might fluctuate. To have that 5% safe in nest surely beats having anything that changes with time?
I think, when you love yourself too much, like 102%, you tend to forget that it is possible for other people to love you for all that you are different from the rest. After all, who needs to believe that when you already are secure in the knowledge that when all failed to know you, you still have yourself? The irony is, there is minimal need for you to believe that you are lovable. Because you know you already are.
Sometimes, the scale will not balance. Sometimes, you wake up wondering if you are the only one who is capable of being in love with yourself.
That's kinda fucked up, don't you think?
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:08